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Puzzle

2012-01-21T12:07:00.003+08:00

Piece by pieces tore off ,
Wishing to place them back to the original form,
Figure out the way, seem to be a little harder than I ever thought

Realise that,not everything can be reshape and redo again ~
That is how our circle of life goes on in daily
Mistaken made,misunderstood happened.
Something seem can't be avoided and solved easily.

Knock* " Indeed I don't like you being ______Do you think you ___ ,can you just ____...."
Words needed to remind by friends you really care and cared.

Felt and thought judge the feeling while others do not understand the same way,

Struggle moved the step to make on alternation of the situation,

Shall there chances be given to listen to my voices as well ?
Definitely not from others words, people idea , anything that heard around .

When placed wrongly , the pictures of the puzzle seem to become awkward.
While they been once connected so well together.

Perhaps.. at least let the situation clearer be known before conclusion is made.

Loitering with wonders.
Seriously , the heart just seem placed wrongly again ...

ps : I simply bear in mind too much within any relationship within people I cared around even I am nothing
to them ? ~

改变~ change

2011-12-27T02:25:00.001+08:00

吾想，那或许是年长了....
时间变得似乎有点难以捉摸，
悄悄地就这样渐渐的流失了，
无论如何驱赶怠慢很懒散，
似乎没办法和时间追逐。

毫无意识的就这样过了圣诞节和生日，
切了“贾氛哥”买的蛋糕的刹那，
除了为爱的家人和朋友们祈福许愿之外,
凌乱的思绪，
无助的尽然没办法为自己想到一个愿望....
随意的，就这样吹掉了唯一的22岁蜡烛。

不再有太多的期待和惊喜。
吾思考，那是老了吗？

无谓地嘶喊也应该没办法得到想要的解答，
在努力的，不再习惯本来该有的生活。
戒掉期待的简讯，msn收悉第一时间的问候，无理的要求。
希望如此的隔绝，可以改变不想...也不在眷恋这一切，
或许是厌倦了一臣不变，
在步伐赶不上时，
就会渐渐的开始落后。
那是没有任何人一丝怜悯可以补助上的~

ps : 人类很多时候不是无知，只是宁愿欺骗自己相信事实的掩盖而已。

Moment 的 Timing 时间

2011-11-29T11:58:00.004+08:00

Do ever realise ,sleep has conquered most of our life time..
Years rolled on , sleep seem to become a little... luxurious?
Ticking tocking..
It just flow without any notification whenever the age numerical started with 2 has passing through silently..

A naive wished to have a moment of time pausing...
Knocking with impossibility existence..
I can't turn back neither change whatever past happened
Fact indulge the tendency to recall back some of the memories with lots " if "
Some past moments with people who cant never be wiped off ?
Moments..

Moment when being bullied by a little boy in trishaw during my kindergarden time
Moment when I made my primary classmate cried just because I hid his bento for fun...
Moment when I missed to hold on my grandpa when he fell down...
Moment when I tied gadget at the highest point
Moment when I sprained my ankle just because the fate made me saw him even in graveyard
Moment when I receive the unwanted news make the tear dropped like crazily
Moment when I dance with the love one with my first high heels..
Moment when being hugged so tight even we nothing much but just a friend that... perhaps i love?
Moment when I keep holding within those text illusion as it end up just corrupted fragilely...
Moment when I started learn to miss people I love around ...
Moment when I have to get used that anyone I love may leave me any moment without any sign....

Moment .....??

ps :

Time wait for no ones ?
Indeed we shall appreciate every single moment ...

Button

2011-11-11T17:31:00.002+08:00

Happening raining season around ,
Ever think of that living things in this world is creepy yet miraculous,
There are "things" around that we cant really explain how it work out?
As it just happen to be working out not as expectation
Yes, we just have to ignore the formulation

Happened a sharing theory stated by Mr Z( always feel the epic words from him)
Relationship between a gentle and a lady is like a button,
There might be plenty gentle who trying to switch it on ?
Some how the currency just never seem to get connected ?
It not about the condition of the plug , but it refuse to turn "on" when you press on it
Instead, an unknown which everyone around think nothing special may simply turn it on?

Yes, don't doubt it!
It always no answer

Sometime I wish.. I can even i can't~

ps : 111120011 and so it nothing special happen ~

Letting go

2011-10-03T00:16:00.001+08:00

There are pretty much tendency for us to have choices within those wants and needs
This time, when there is a chance that I just have to speak a Yes to you ,
I doubted it...
As I knew the heart isn't fully occupied for me...
Yet the knowing answer paused me for further instead of accepting all the fond ...

When curiousness and insecure are questioned ,
Your silent and confuse face seem to reveal the answer
I wish that isn't answer ....
The tighter the hug the more the uncertainty seem to be
The afraid of attaching on you seem to be stronger ..

It seem nothing different within the decision ,
I woke myself up !

ps : Without promises, everything end easily ~

在乎的

2011-09-11T01:28:00.001+08:00

雨水在没有预兆的星期六夜晚降落，
吾眷恋起长发厚度的温暖。
以为不曾有一丝犹豫剪去的长发
像是.....期待着什么。

那天假日，和好几个月没约的Mr H到了海边拍照，
他说，短发好看！
没有太多惊喜地，用一个微笑回赠赞美 =）

昨天看电影，
问了好久不见面的Mr P短发的意见
吾说短发比较多人要电话！
然而他说 “还是长头发比较好”

某天认真地在msn问起在乎的人的意见
却得来理性的pros and cons 的回答，
问了后觉得自己笨到不行 ~
就这样，失落的不想理他，

好吧，吾是有点后悔把不长不短的头发再修了一下。

ps : It is tough when someone special starts to neglect you, but it is even tougher when you have to pretend you don't mind ...

Pause, unproductive

2011-08-24T01:18:00.001+08:00

Perhaps it is raining day
The unwanted thoughts swelling in my mind without realise.
Perhaps i never realise how life can be simple ?
If everything happen as planed?
Perhaps sometimes..
I am just ..a little bit greed to expect more...
Jumble within confusion ?
As faith seem never happen to believe in myself .
Perhaps i never wanna admit the jealousy when questioned ?
Perhaps i don't know what's wrong ?
Dear heart , talk to me now?

Us- breathing

2011-07-21T00:36:00.004+08:00

Without ever think of the scene ..

Attended a funeral rites of my 22 years secondary friend who moseyed to another place due to illness

A whispered to my own as a promised not to shed off tear in front her as others did.

The imbibed water seem help to diverge the focus on the table while listening to her love telling those past

The moment seeing her mother fatigue face with teary smile ..
that seem to stimulate everyone tear .

Hmm that is the fragility of human life...
Tomorrow has never inform and tell the story .
The leaving one will never appear anymore but with memory left
To the living one ? an unfix answer ...
yet no matter how, the living one - Us
shall LOVE LIFE =)

ps : take appreciation of breathing the air now ~

至-梦想

2011-07-05T01:09:00.002+08:00

纵使似有似无徘徊着的空闲,
不知哪天变得了有些迷茫~

吾想嘶喊 1 - 好想念大学的忙碌，被忙碌折腾的时光。
是，想残了~
敲敲后脑，努力的再想想。
那些忙碌不能赚钱呀因为兴趣的玩乐后，终归需要现实的回归。

现实与梦想总是有些差距。
而能将梦想现实化的人们是多么幸福。
不经的...缅怀在小学时填写的志愿表 - 梦想的职业 ...

曾想要成为一名空中小姐- 因为想要环游世界，不踏实的却迷恋上在高空上的感觉
想要成为一名记者- 因为好奇的想要成为全世界第一个得到消息的人
想要成为一名工程师 -因为爱组装积木(lego), 想设计建造自己未来的梦想家的感觉
想要成为一名时装设计师- 因为每天都能将漂漂亮亮的一切往身上放
想要成为一名医生- 因为tvb播了“妙手人心” 附加（老师说你的字体很草和长相不配可以当医生）>.<

好吧，必须承认吾很贪心什么都想尝试！
然而只有增长没有减少的岁数模糊了小时候所谓的梦想...
它们渐渐的消失了.....
因为似乎不曾对任何一个坚持~
像是和现实签了约~
不想承认却否认不了- 吾不梦也迷“梦”。

不管梦想是否实现，曾经坚持的努力
就是梦想的 - 回忆

ps ：给有梦想的人们，努力过就好 =）

puke of May's pic words

2011-06-14T01:28:00.008+08:00

A full schedule month of May which made time flowed even faster..

Indeed this sent picture of that day was hoping to gain more miss from you yet i seem failed. Still i shall accepted i'm no more " special " to you . Am I?..

ps : taken during an event in genting

Hoping things can always as sweet as wished yet i know it is impossible
ps : Taken in Bangkok

- mirror reflected face but not the heart ..

There are always lots of things which cant live without yet who bother that much to figure out..

ps : taken in starbucks of Genting

The unique of fate brought stranger to become friends always raise some unknown warm relationship between each others

ps : taken in Taiping during camp

Tried to understand shallow of human within appearance but what is that ?

ps : taken before a wedding dinner

When we find smile isn't that hard world will be better !
ps : taken during Lily's sis wedding

The 11th Mars Man 火星男

2011-05-10T01:33:00.002+08:00

最近，常常看见身边的人们都好像幸福似的...

结婚去了~

虽然不曾对它有太多的憧憬

但似乎誓言听多了，婚纱照看多了，

不经意的会去想想

未来是要和哪个和怎么样的他生活一辈子。

理应的，好奇未来那个一天到晚对着吾的他，

能否用心聆听，

分享彼此的一切。

在第一时间想起自己父母后，

就是吾的位置。

无条件的疼爱！

最重要的是一觉睡醒对着吾的他，

不要求不断增加的爱，但至少不会减退0.001%。

那或许是有点远是吧？(老一辈都说，好命的都嫁人去了xD）

况且有离婚这名词。

依然的想嘶喊....

“ 我想结婚！！”

虽然一辈子不是必然的，

但人们依然希望遇见

他的她和她的他 ~

那天看了一部电影。

单身男女

撇不开帅哥美女的主演

很一般的浪漫都市爱情。

然而人们都撇不开很一般的爱情...

ps : 幸福不是必然的，但很多时候却偶然的出现了！等待偶然中？

What am I to you

2011-04-17T01:52:00.003+08:00

It is exam season now,

supposedly flipping my notes and viewing those boring slides

Try my best to squeeze in those alphabet term and formulae that created by the noble scientist.

Sigh to say,how i wish i am dutiful type of person....

Time used to play and being moony never been equal to the study time.

It's raining in the morning ~
With lately favorite song
Norah Jones - What Am I To You

A flashed back of a question that i had asked someone recently ,
As it.. a clear reason is always needed for some specific act.

"What am I to you "?
hmm...i suppose it to be big doubt for me with his answer.
As the "special" of his statement seem to be an unknown
Nor it sounds more superficiality to skip it .
As if that particular word to answer me... maybe happen on others.
Well,lesson of that day ?
Don't ever expect much ...(i knew it !!)

There were multi answers I got from others with this question when my MSN displayed it
No matter how , it seem nothing much to bear in mind ?
Instead of that, an answer of him seem much more i stored in mind with plenty of question mark ..
Courage seems needed for me to make it clear..

It's tough when you yourself cant even categories a person position
There is something inside yet it actually nothing much ~
Again i feel i take it too much within this few simple wording
I shall just forget and appreciate the good huh ?

ps : Happiness is like our perfume: We can't give it away without getting a little on ourselves

愚人自愈

2011-04-04T19:55:00.002+08:00

炎热的午后，令人慵懒得什么都不想做。

只希望老天赶快热得流汗，

然而就好像怎么等，蔚蓝的天空还是美美的。

郁闷，就是郁闷。

做着不清不楚的assignment,

突然问了不清不楚的关系....

安全感即降，令吾感到不安。
不清楚那到底是不是害怕？

想着，生命没有太多的理由？
人们常常说活在当下！

所以吾没有太多的理由继续等待。

一点一滴的，

吾想...或许是时候该止步？

远离不了的- 愚人的国度

ps : 戒掉对你一些习惯，期盼就能戒掉吗？

Disappearance 消失

2011-03-23T03:02:00.002+08:00

Where helpless torturing ...

as nothing can be done

i may regret for that time ,

if this and that decision isnt made ~

Even thought, a sounds always remind me

there if no IF ...

Whenever , miracle is been hoping to occur for that moment

it will just vanished within second in my mind

as that is just me !

Truly don't believe in it yet hoping it happen on me .

Looking at the mirror,

recall my 20 years life,

tend to question those destiny,

why this happen to me , why do i deserved this?

Hence, cant deny, i should always being grateful ~

As i am actually live blissful than others

I wish i could understand how thieve's thought !

so that i won't feel like blaming anything around for my lost

ps : need a hug and tell me is alright ...

Recycling

2011-03-13T01:25:00.002+08:00

A wish to have a short scream when looking at the calender in my desktop ..

It is march indeed ...

Busy life used to allow time fly without conscious

It just need no any request to grab away you from present tense

Badges of my lately event Panggung Bodhi

theme : 轻叩心门 Knocking of heart's Door

It's a theater about the latest issue which is commit suicide phenomena of nowadays youngster
The objective is to talk about recycling of our own heart (心灵环保）
A not deniable great objective of the theme
Throw away the trash which are those unnecessary that bothering us...
For further about this,you may search out the name of the objective

Often,there is no certainty whether it is a life i want

close my eyes and question the owner's heart

It happen to be , fill in the blank

hence it is life i shall procceed now....

ps : hmm, it need no permission to miss me ,just be truth :)

雨天的思绪

2011-02-12T01:33:00.001+08:00

最近一部很不错本地电影里的台词曾说过
不管是晴天，雨天，天天都是好天。

个人就是偏爱阴天和绵绵细雨。
然而雨天总是让思绪的转动加速，
左脑？右脑？
它们可能在一起被运用着吗？
似乎不太可能。

想，惯性假设的要不得，
却阻止不了。
因为那连错觉的成分都不是。
人们常说，用心想或脑去想？
科学上，脑是理所当然被运用的那个
但很多时候心和脑都没办协议....

突然思考那天某朋友曾问
“为何不接受他或其他的追求？”
厄...?就没有很喜欢。（当时应该是这样答了）
仔细想？因为那些都只是追求。
和真心待你是两码事。
所以还是把心收好。

突然翻回以前久相簿，
照片里不爱笑，因为总觉得笑不笑没什么大不了
然而，现在某些时候笑脸迎人
笑似乎在某些时候,是没什么大不了的敷衍。

很多时候，口是心非成了长大后不能缺席的。
很多时候，无法诚实的面对自己，
所以选择了马马虎虎的带过。

ps : 那天那封简讯，明白了，感觉渐去，原来那眷恋已不在 :)

stopped with progress ?

2011-01-24T02:16:00.008+08:00

Since when ....
i am in fonding with the misty atmosphere around my hostel...
It makes my path pause for moments
as just to observe the mist after the rain.

As if hope to stop mind from being functioning within something useless ?
nor things shall consider to be progressed ?
which this thought has totally failed
Some how even though the path has stop
Inversely,the working of brain cell intend not to follow.

ps: we can't change others ,so try to change mind to think of others positively .

ページ，一页的 2010

2010-12-30T17:43:00.006+08:00

想想，原来已经忘了撕下最后一张日历的记忆和感觉。

或许不曾觉得每年那最后一张被撕去的特别。

那年的十年前，二零零零

三个零数的陪伴，

十一岁的无忧，十一的理所当然，十一的puppy love。

回想时，才发觉有些已经记不住了....

那是拼命想也想不起的？
他，她和大家，或许锁在记忆里的某处。

那时曾想过十年后的今天，
纵使今天总会因为明天的来临变成过去。
依然努力的期待每一天。
总是天真的以为，
细细地品尝因该的甜？酸？苦？辣？涩....

回顾着二零一零每个过去的今天，
挥一挥的，吾带不走。
眷恋的，
想等的，
想碰的，
想看的，
遗憾的，
没答案的是-太多...
只能偶尔回想。
然而你你和吾清楚的是，
依然必须往前行.....

ps : 给吾爱的你们，一起加油吧！:)

Reason

2010-12-18T23:57:00.006+08:00

There is time that we may take appreciation of sickness within positively

Wonder ?

As if.. it makes your time and path get sluggish

Visualization come to be like a fog...

Memories tend to bide still when we preferable it to let behind
In the same time, things that should be tided always get forgotten
While i was kid, i wished to grow up and live like an adult.
Inversely for now, i hope that the day will never ever approach me...
Human ,we are hilarious isn't? I use to have such though..

A random Saturday night , watched a movie which is a real story originally from Japan
named Hachiko : A Dog's Tale
It seem way to simple to be complicated?
A dog name Hachi waited his owner at a railway station for 10 years untill it died..
With believe and love of an animal toward it's love one
No matter what condition, ,he trusted he will see his owner again..
Where by his owner has pass away which he (hachi) insist gonna see him again if he wait

i wont say Hachi dumb as i knw L.O.V.E is powerful

With no reason ,it is simply touched
cried for whole night like no one else care.. ( my mom just said, don't watched till too late,hurry on bed! )
Perhaps i just need a reason to let go things i shall not insist with :)

ps : I am fragile recently...which i shall not ..

如果，遇

2010-11-16T13:51:00.007+08:00

天气：频繁雨天温度：28º

那天到了以前常穿着白衣蓝裙打混的“天堂”（休闲书局）

才知道现在的人很少看那些书了

导致老板把二楼的书统统买了。（好可惜）

想想~ 原来已经近两年没踏进那里了。

看着一页页被翻去的日历，
已经一零年的十一月了
不及的来临，愣不住时间，

很多时候都是...
来不及切切地感受就结束了,
来不及努力就被宣布失败,
来不及清醒就被惊醒，
来不及真切的笑眼泪就掉了，
忙碌和怠慢而来不及分享的照片回忆.....
统统储存在internal hardisk，却没有征兆的就被多人宣布死亡了。

那是无常吗？
惯性用照片来纪录生活成了依赖。
像是突然的，时刻性的永久失忆
大家都说照片可以再照，回忆可以再造...
然而眷恋的是....
再也不是那刹那和那片刻.

人类纵使清楚了解没有如果和早知的存在
依然存有一份希望的去想。
housemate 黄小姐说她相信奇迹，虽然它不曾发生实践在她身旁。
某先生说奇迹经常和他相遇，滑稽的说吾应该认识它。
miracle ？与它依然是个绝缘体

吾想?吾想....却不知

ps : 渐渐的在努力，学习看看身边别的他们 ~

schreiben - Letters to....

2010-11-01T02:54:00.070+08:00

What if the word
"if" and "what" are the non threating words
put them side by side
they have the power to haunt you life by life
what if ..? what if..?

The two words that used to hang over mouth
It may along with prediction or sorrow
True or false ? it always just an answer to be ticked .
Words with promise, when they come across the air
Seem so trifling or trivial as to be beneath one's consideration
Evidence somehow seems to be needed..

Perhaps a written letter?
How long would we people touch on pen to write on a piece of letter?
Only exam sheet papers and formal letters haunted around !
It comes to be like proof as in histories or even memories.
Hence, the text proof in cellphone always fragile with a press of button..
displayed screen - DELETE
nothing is the only remain...

A sudden though about the love letters/notes that received during childhood in primary
That time, it never need any replied but a grin
(I should't throw them into dustbin that time)
It may entertain the idleness and leisure time now .

To realise,
Once upon a time, people just about being simple
With the absence of technology
No sms, no phone as if nothing..
Just an impulse to over far far aways distance wandered..
Just for their moment...
Imagine , as you and I may never experience now..

A recent watched movie

" Letter to Juliet "

It is story happened in Verona of Italy.

There is a place where..the heartbroken leaves notes asking for Juliet's help

A hidden 50 years ago letter was found by Sophie behind the rock wall.

50 years ago ,a young couple fell in love

Yet,a mis decision....

Even they love each other yet one of them chose to leave

The young girl,Sophie give her courage to find back her love after 50 years
with only telltale look eyes of him that captured in her memory ...

(for further watch it your own ^^)

~does every mortified possible to be fixed ?~

- Heaven's Postman -

Letter from their love's one on earth send to the death

ps : Often, forgetting... is needed with serendipity along

五官- 与它

2010-10-23T12:36:00.011+08:00

某天特别的日期，不知为何就是看见了....。
像陌生人一样的..

一直以为很好的自己

总是若无其事的自己..

摸着胸口，它其实是在刺痛...

不断的寻觅它

它始终收不回心脏的位置。

想否认一直被认为高EQ的自己有衰减的迹象

想否认的太多了，

当碰到哪一块不知名的地带，

眼睛的讯号依然背叛了其余的五官

我们唯一的默契，就只是眼神回避

隐藏得的好和难受成了等号。

否认不了？

你。因该是过得快乐也不在乎，

所以，不想傻傻的
让它荒唐的游荡！
吾的心，问问时间呀！

neutralization 可再缩短吗？

该来的进不了....不该来却一拥而上。

Ps ：过去了看开点，是任何人都能说，实践却是两会事。

爱了、或者、不爱了，都是很吃力的事情….因为认真要隐瞒的话，一定瞒得住别人，但一定瞒不住自己….然而，自己有时，却并不想知道

Perfection,a never

2010-10-16T00:43:00.007+08:00

Life always has to proceed
It's October..
An urge to wake myself up when September ends

Wake me up when September ends in german lyric ~ (just feel to share it)

Without bothering whether it work out
Busyness is chose to be with..
As to believe,
one of the way that at least may keep mind stored with unnecessary distraction

Human like else,tried hard ,harder,hardest ?
Not to let emotion become an equalization with face expression
With pretty kind of sure, some how still failed to do so ?
Do we ?
Yet still, i did well to minimize it as much as i could, am i ?
It just isn't about being fake,
As it has to be the way to face someone..sometime

The day with the number 101010 that fall on the cloudy Sunday
A number that seem to be great ?
Perfection meaning in mandarin .

A number of date that people choose to have their Marriage and whatever so on
Moment when some people are in great of the top ..
Grabbing everyone's attentions and compliments
Glory in once ,
Inversely ,ever think of world of the other corners?
tragedy did happen around for the same moment ....
Where a serious accident happen at highway AMJ (near malacca)
Within second, human's life can just be grabbed easily...
It always fragile ..
Leave only sadness leads to their loves (with deepest condolence ..)

Blame for the unfair destiny,unknown,unsatisfactory ?
I dun wish to admit...
When it comes, just about moving on ..

ps : With hatred to realize heart recoverability is harder then i thought ...
<有些戀愛，越愛越寂寞，簡直就像睡著以後做夢，卻老是夢到失眠一樣划不來> -康永,给未知恋人的爱情短信

红蜻蜓 dragonfly

2010-09-27T10:20:00.023+08:00

早晨，雨后的阴天，凉凉的
听着韦礼安的- 阴天的向日葵

特别的惆怅...（又想要咖啡了..）

看到了好多红蜻蜓在balcony外飞来飞去

你追我跑，它们同样的
还是在原点盘旋的着..

忽然想起dear Fishy小姐某天曾发表 “被追求” 论（copyright* ）

它让我上瘾
我享受被人喜欢
我喜欢被人仰慕
就算我对那个人没有感觉
但依然希望他还可以一直一直追求着我
一直一直喜欢我
我害怕失去这种感觉

这种举动很自私
不爱，却霸占

不予置评（no offence yea :p )
呃~这感觉也许是种诱惑？

不喜欢却迷恋

吾不怎么的迷恋，都选择残忍地说不 ~（no offences ）

曾经想要如此霸占，但发觉没法忍受这种累赘。

疲惫却令人想改变....

或许现在应该学习享受所谓的累赘。

因为，可能会快乐些 ~

想捕捉它们自由快乐追逐的倩影。

但数度太快，没有DSLR，什么都看不到~

快乐，它也捕捉不了！

ps : 笑，它只是一个表情，与快乐无关。

90后的89-之谈

2010-09-21T00:14:00.011+08:00

那天云顶山后的晚餐
五个单身男女的车上，

十五分钟？看似不长也不短的回途车程，不知为何....
闲聊到J男生和W女生的事，气氛不知为何就变得有些凝重。
没有理由的，像成了single car talk...似的(assume to be single)
mr F分享说他的1st是利欲熏心的,利用了他来达到想要的
理因伤心的他，说了不？
mr F：我没必要为已经不爱的人伤心。（强！)

苹果姐说她有的时候不知如何下决定？
她认为感觉有可能会错的，当来得及反应对与否时，却已经错过了对方。
金星姐也补充，有可能不合，更多问题？

K先生说他有的时不懂爱.....
追求那女生后发觉不如想象中，自己不够好，所以放弃了。
吾：可要是那女生已心动了？想想她的感受？她也许会很不明也不甘心？
K先生：女生很麻烦？（无言）

吾：也许很难喜欢上，亦很难爱上，它会是问号？
以前总觉得暧昧没什么不好，享受不必负责的喜欢，相互的依偎。
但随着年龄的增长，暧昧却像杨丞琳的歌词中，让人受尽委屈....
或许有答案不如没答案好?

K先生：只有过一段恋情的我说了也没人信...

吾信！因为吾如此的一番话也被当成谎言！
忽然想起某天梁小姐曾经说过
就像是..你喜欢的人不喜欢你，你不喜欢的却偏偏缠着你...
[ 我愛你 , 與你何干 ? ] ......... 這句話 , 好可愛 , 好可悲 , 好可貴 , 好可憐 .《康永，给未知恋人的爱情短信》
的确，是一番有可悲到的言论？

L.O.V.E by hebe (简单而明了..)

车上充满了太多的叹气？

mr F：原来我们都不敢爱...

吾得它需要时间恢复原状...

p s ：某天，都结束了..不可以选择的愚昧！心积极复原状态中....

（thx for offering to be listener ~)

2010-09-12T16:11:00.008+08:00

As i remember ..

thou ~ 生日快乐 ♥ ^^

may all thee dreams come true ..

p s : 12/09/10 first time did so..... : )

Notes left behind ♥

2010-09-01T02:44:00.000+08:00

Happened for me to read an article from SinChew newspaper .

entitle : 来，大声说出我爱你 voice out loud ..I love you

have a read !

It is about little girl who only able to live 6 years in this world..

Elena is her name.. with the memoir of the nation over some where is US

known as the Smiling Angles

She was diagnosed with the disease just before her 6th birthday

Doctors gave her 135 days to live. She made it 255 days.

When her cancer progressed and she could no longer speak,

she turned to drawing and painting,

The girl who loved art and reading began to write notes on any paper she could find

Post-it notes, scrap paper….silently with the words

“I love you”

Her parent found out all these notes after she passed away

She hided it all over drawer , bed and any edge of the house

With all these deepest love note,

Give the strength of happiness for her family to live on..

these were some of the notes left behind

Well ,some how we tend or used to seal this words inside..
do you? (that's is so me)

Hmm,lets think?

You do have someone to tell the words?

The girl Elena has told us , love have to speak out

As they worth for us to love

Ps : I love you 我爱你...! do u ?

就是你 ~

2010-08-29T04:00:00.000+08:00

某天笔拿在手上，才发觉好多文字忘了怎么写....也许是华语变烂了.
好吧，又是一句烂的形容词!
衰神，他应该是爱上我之类。
似乎没有一件正常的事情发生在我身上。
之前有进不来的简讯，后又是不知名的简讯。
如此低调了，依然的..
无辜的被扯进别人的感情事，am i look to be that type person or do i even need to do so?
做了善事结果变成好奇怪的局面。
我只能说我无言，嫉妒是可怕~
我可爱的铅笔盒，竟然遗留在lab，就这样，不见了....T.T（会有奇迹吗？)
太多了,不想用抱怨来污染我的blog...
厌倦猜测不明不安的感觉，因为安全感是被需要的。
其实，有话想问你，但时间不等人...

今天的我好乖(nerd look)，待在图书馆啃silver & nickel (snap wit webcam with yesterday com night remained curls on hair)

ps : thou, don't u really have any other things want to say ?

Lingering ？

2010-08-24T16:10:00.000+08:00

Being dumb may be something loitering around me recently

kindly needing those focus back..

some how it just happen to be like the uncontrollably tape water

No matter how tight u turned it

yet.. still a few ..dropped out

perhaps some fixing is needed !

abandon the mechanic and let the time fix it ~

as waiting for the unknown is kind of torture...

A fella told me that girl is like an investment

Z : so hurry get someone to invest on u ?

another added to say : she demands high investment, normal can satisfy her！
what a..speechless

It is definitely a cross X ..not for me !
It just make me think of mail i gt recently

Just read this, it will make a difference.

If only everyone could see this and understand it.

When she stares at your mouth
Kiss her

When she pushes you or hits you like a dummie
cause she thinks she is stronger than you
Grab her and dont let go

When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough

Kiss her and tell her you love her

When she's quiet
Ask her whats wrongWhen she ignores you
Give her your attention

When she pulls away..Pull her back

When you see her at her worst
Tell her she's beautiful
When you see her start crying..Just hold her and don't say a word

When you see her walking Sneak up and hug her waist from behind

When she's scared ，Protect her

When she steals your favorite hoodie
Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night ..When she teases you
Tease her back and make her laugh ..When she doesn't answer for a long time
reassure her that everything is okay...When she looks at you with doubt
Back yourself up ,When she says that she loves you
she really does more than you can understand..When she grabs at your hands
Hold her's and play with her fingers...When she bumps into you;
bump into her back and make her laugh..When she tells you a secret
keep it safe and untold ....When she looks at you in your eyes
dont look away until she does....When she says it's over
she still wants you to be hers.... When she reposts this bulletin
she wants you to read it-
Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything
- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go
- When she says she's ok don't believe it,
talk with her because ten years later she'll remember you-
Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
-Treat her like she's all that matters to you
- Stay up all night with her when she's sick
- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid
- Give her the world.
- Let her wear your clothes
-When she's bored and sad, hang out with her
-Let her know she's important.
- Don't talk about other girls around her
- Kiss her in the pouring rain
- When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is:
"Whose ass am i kicking baby?"

It is rather simple nor can be little hard

It mean a lot when it is the right person..

Is an apologizes when come to wrong person

p.s : foolish may be an exhaustion 笨得好累 ~

chill ~

2010-08-18T16:34:00.001+08:00

It raining days
with kind of chill weather ~
Suddenly think of a movie i watched recently in dharma class
岁月神偷
It is just simple story line about the old Hong Kong yet it shown reality of life
Have a watch !
below are 2 version of the movie theme song，note the eng version lyrics
it jus simplt touched me ♥

Echoes of the rainbow
Softly sighs the Rainbow

Misty songs of old 

Flowing by the skyline 

My secret lullaby 

Softly sighs the rainbow 

Stories seldom told 

Flowing by the skyline 

My love songs that never rhyme 

I  Stand alone by my secret rainbow 

Ah  My secret rainbow

岁月轻狂

ps : may there a big warm hugs from thou ?...~

Friday the 13th

2010-08-13T19:00:00.000+08:00

In middle of night.
If tear can make someone feel better ,
i hope it work out for me this moment..
yet it help nothing .

ps : remain rational , don't listen to heart ...

平衡`~

2010-08-06T02:44:00.000+08:00

平衡不了的晚上，想用我的至爱sundae cone 调解坏心情。

尽然ice-cream机器坏了，只好郁闷的离开。

到了某某方，郁闷加倍，看了看...

sketch七连胜变成了0%。

与其想想怎么解决，我竟然想想怎么解释...

太郁闷，什么也想不到....

quiz 塞不进脑，

得不想的要的，就只有迎来无用的抗议感，

好吧！是很幼稚？

突然想起Dr Rosaidi 说的

“today you are okay,tomo you are crazy,who cares ？”

对没人会太在乎的...

分享 p.s :

[ 我愛你 , 與你何干 ? ] ......... 這句話 , 好可愛 , 好可悲 , 好可貴 , 好可憐 .《康永，给未知恋人的爱情短信》

Home alone

2010-08-02T01:23:00.000+08:00

A sudden text....
opps ! i am going to stay alone tonight,

housemate & roommate waved, byee
fortunately hang out whole day for Sat
In the night, with really exhausted body , yet cant fall sleep easily
Faced lame lizards, it did sacred me out!
Little afraid ....someone offer to sing me a sleeping song
Hence ,wish to hav a chat wit thou till i fall sleep
thou seem busy or jus mayb...
dun wanna make any guess anymore..

ps : Previously wasn't a misunderstood !i meant it, wish u knw ~

Being normal ~

2010-07-29T02:11:00.001+08:00

Guess what , frens who met me for this few days tend to ask me
" hey, what are u busy wit recently ? B*,P*,K*.. "
No i am just free out of all that ~
Some how it just take sometimes for me to get used being in an ordinary circular
Even thought these phenomena might wont happen for the coming sem
phew ~ well need to get rid of it ...
Jus about get rid of them
Get rid of bugs
Get rid of annoy thinking
Get rid of an unknown feeling toward..

p.s : zero interaction by leaving which i wish to say.... i actually care...

unknown

2010-07-23T23:37:00.000+08:00

Is drizzling here
i am gloom ...
Jus abt gloomy ~
no idea why

ps : hope thou could figure out why?

passive nor active

2010-07-20T00:34:00.000+08:00

i have to confess ...
i am passive..
Tend to bide our time without knowing anything
stand still on the spot ,staring at the screen
cant be denied to say it is kind of coward act
as u might not felt the same way as i am ...

ps : Thou won , I'll stop and forget perhaps.. as those have to be just nothing

奄 • 恋空

2010-06-29T00:54:00.000+08:00

某天午后的27°c

最近奄迷恋天气，喜爱观察今天的云，

猜猜，老天是否会热的流汗（雨）

有的时候不是不喜欢太阳，只是它某些时候有点猛。

偶尔打开电视，决然的转到TVB8 - 313台,

奄喜欢看气象台（怪吧？）

就因它几乎每小时都在播报天气。

看看每个地方的温度~

英国的初夏/春天让我想念起台湾冬天

不怕冷的我，对奄而言它多半是凉凉的（14-25°c）

这时，澳洲的冬天，冷冷的（1-5°c）

奄想起在中国-北京的冬天

好冷 ~ （-8 -1°c）

突然，奄好想感受秋天...

落叶的感觉。

感慨啊~ astro 的TVB8 即将停止了，T.T

好吧！奄需戒掉....

P.S : 突然好像看雪~

some boredom

2010-06-25T01:29:00.000+08:00

Hand make shushi !

ingredients inside were salmon fish,egg,cucumber and my favorite mackerel fish !!

well applied some special sauce on top !

wee,nice!

P.S : it just meant something when u need release ..

perhaps, i don't understand

2010-06-17T01:09:00.000+08:00

Checked the thermometer reads wit 27ºc in my garden

Wat a day with 27 to 28 ºc for whole day

the hidden of Sun today ~ love this

A really hilarious to know , i can't spin and reel and the same time

i always thought i could do it

So would that mean i would never have any affair if i am not available?

i don't knw?Some how i just wish i would

No why, it just a thought

Forgive me

p.s : Your sudden text did make my heart beat raises ..waiting your words

Dear forecast

2010-06-09T01:06:00.000+08:00

Today Christina's weather forecast announce ~ gloomy day
Whole day sky dye with grey cloudy

Same as the weather today, her mood i mean

Seem gloom but need to be cheer
A breath of sigh

Tried to control as she thought

Perhaps it may b a lil difficult

Past, she did allow herself to b emo for a day,

As she knows how to shed away tear ~

always greet the coming

p.s : Needs a hug from my stranger ..

用我的眼睛

2010-05-11T01:36:00.000+08:00

妈妈说她可忍受听不见，说不了和闻不到，甚至动不了但他却不能看不见。
虽然我认为以上都非常重要，但我不可否认眼睛会是很多的一切。
怎么说，曾经在停电的夜晚，没有一丝丝的灯光行走，尝试着触摸。
那是多么让人不安和惶恐，所以真的很佩服失明人士！
因为这是在看着我的文字的你和我无法体会和了解的。

最近，我用这一双眼睛看了很多套电影和戏剧
到戏院看了期待已久的 - 叶问
算是值回票价的一套电影。

在pps看了个人觉得不错的冷门电影

七天爱上你 - 和一般爱情系列电影不同，请细细地观赏 ^^

和一部很多人都告诉我不这么好看的近期电影 - 全城热恋

然而我却喜欢它诠释的韵味 “ 热恋 ”

Some unknown

2010-04-29T01:06:00.000+08:00

Some repetition questions i gt to be asked frequently from others ,

Are u still single: yes
How many times u been in a relationship : once ( ppl answer : i don't believe!! )
Do u have a crush now : Nope i think , jus not sure whether he is ...
i think u are too choosy : i am not
Anyone who admire/chase u : u figure urself , (@@)
What type of guy u like　：no range , so any guy can b~ feel come first
Why dont u find a boyfriend : Cant meet the right one

p.s : i don't need a boyfriend as i need a lover ♥

May that a bafflement

2010-04-21T19:59:00.000+08:00

Finally, i gave an answer , i spoke it as if i thought that will be more relief
Fact is i am wrong ~
perhaps i am not free & easy as i own indulged

p.s : 原来我没想像中的潇洒 ~

就这样的一周~

2010-04-12T02:43:00.000+08:00

夜深人静的夜晚总是令人有太多思绪

如此又过了一个星期。

太多的来不及
来不及彷徨，来不及思考，来不及准备，来不及转身....
太多的来不及...
不想再思考来不及的一切，因为已经来不及了！

Night with 24° ♥

2010-04-02T02:09:00.000+08:00

Another chill night , without any unwanted noise

Silently having my finger sticked on my keyboard

Played song entitle '' Two is better than one ''by boys like girls

Words that slowly appear with my typing path

Nothing much too express, i just wanna be like this moment

Not much worry thought loitering in my mind~

Tonight, i am just being so simple

with U capture my life ♥ ~

P.S : May fate bring us a come across again ♂ ♀

~ 思

2010-03-15T01:42:00.000+08:00

Interesting mail to share ~

一對新婚夫婦生活貧困，一天，丈夫對妻子說：

'親愛的，我要去很遠的地方工作，

直到我有條件給你一種舒適體面的生活才會回來。

我只求你一件事，我不在的時候要對我忠誠，

我也會對你忠誠的。'

很多天之後，他被一個莊園錄用了。

他要老闆答應他一個請求：

'請允許我在這裡想幹多久就幹多久，

當我覺得應該離開時，

您要放我走。

我離開那天，

您再把我賺的錢給我。

'雙方達成了協議。

年輕人在那裏整整工作了 20年，中間沒有休假。

一天，他對老闆說：'我要回家了。'

老闆說：'我會照協議辦事的。不過我有個建議，

要麼我給你錢，要麼我給你3條忠告，

你好好想想再給我答覆。'

他想了兩天，然後找到老闆，說：

'我想要那3條忠告。

'老闆提醒他說：'如果給了你忠告

，我就不會給你錢了。

'他還是說：

'我想要忠告。'

老闆對他說：

'第一:永遠不要走捷徑。

便捷而陌生的道路可能會要了你的命。

第二:永遠不要對可能是壞事的事情好奇，

否則也可能要了你的命。

第三:永遠不要在仇恨和痛苦的時候做決定，

否則你以後一定會後悔。'

老闆接著說：'這裡有3個麵包，兩個給你路上吃，

另一個等你回家後和妻子一起吃吧。'

在遠離自己深愛的妻子和家鄉 20年之後，

男人踏上了回家的路。一天后，他遇到了一個人，

那人說：

'這條路太遠了，我認識一條捷徑，

幾天就能到。'

他高興極了，正準備走捷徑的時候，

想起了老闆的第一條忠告，

於是他回到了原來的路上。

後來，

他得知那人讓他走的所謂的捷徑

完全是一個圈套。

幾天之後，他走累了，發現路邊有家旅館，

他打算住一夜，付過房錢之後，他躺下睡了。

睡夢中，他被一聲慘叫驚醒，

他跳了起來，走到門口，想看看發生了什麼事，

剛剛打開門，他想起了第二條忠告，

於是回到床上繼續睡覺。

起床後，喝完咖啡，店主問他是否聽到了叫聲，

他說聽到了店主說：'您不好奇嗎？'

他回答說不好奇。

店主說：

'您是第一個活著從這裡出去的客人。

我的獨子有瘋病，

他昨晚大叫著引客人出來，

然後將他們殺死埋了。'

年輕人接著趕路，終於在一天的黃昏時分，

他遠遠地望見了自己的小屋，

屋子的煙囪正冒著炊煙，

還依稀可見妻子的身影，雖然天色昏暗，

但他仍然看清了妻子不是一個人，

還有一個男子伏在她的膝頭，

她撫摸著他的頭髮。看到這—幕，

他的內心充滿了仇恨和痛苦，

他想跑過去殺了他們，他深吸一口氣，

快步走了過去，

這時他想起了第三條忠告，於是停了下來。

天亮後，已恢復冷靜的他對自己說：

'我不能殺死我的妻子，

我要回到老闆那裏，求他收留我，在這之前，

我想告訴我的妻子我始終忠於她。'

他走到家門口敲了敲門，妻子打開門，

認出了他，撲到他懷裏，緊緊地抱住了他。

他想把妻子推開，但沒有做到。

他眼含淚水，對妻子說：'我對你是忠誠的，

可你背叛了我……'妻子吃驚地說：

'什麼？我從未背叛過你，我等了你20年。

'他說：'那麼昨天下午你

愛撫的那個男人是誰？'

妻子說：'那是我們的兒子。

你走時我剛懷孕，今年他已經20歲了。'

丈夫走進家門，擁抱了自己的兒子。

在妻子忙做著晚飯的時候，

他給兒子講述了自己的經歷。

接著，一家人坐下來一起吃麵包，

他把老闆送的麵包掰開，

發現裏面有一筆錢———

那是他20年辛苦勞動賺來的工錢。

人們... 總習慣用自己的角度去看事情, 直到... 瞭解了真相...

Days with virus

2010-02-27T15:19:00.000+08:00

Virus started to attack me once i back to ukm ,flu,cough,fever....

Yeap,they visited me systematically day by day in this....

Did my electric and magnetic test in sitution that needed cool-fever on forehead.

well..~ thx a lot for Yen Ying medicine ~ it did reduce some unwanted suffer pain

Voice gone weird....cant speak too much ..

No idea what i did for my test paper..?

Panggung Bodhi makes me headache ~

helpless,dumbness, exhausted.....

those make tend to escape , i dont wanna say i miss mom & dad

As i cant deny the above so self hypnotize is need ...

I can take all these..i can !

thx for choco raisin during virus attacked^^- breakfast,lunch and dinner...

Tigress year

2010-02-14T02:19:00.001+08:00

Reunion time, some simple ingredient,few pots of simple soup without any MSG added
The unchanged was.. steamboat for reunion dinner again .
I like it without any reason.
As i believe havin dish wit right ppl at rite time will always make it perfect moment.
Stay in home for the night
Sticked my eyes with my cellphone and TV
Replied lovely CNY & valentine wishes which happen on the same day that only occur 56 years once.
Watch all movies around.
Enjoy the simple new year..^^

charcoal mask that bought in taiwan^^

p.s : looking forward moment after 56 year today with U my valentine ......

偶尔一次

2010-02-13T01:19:00.000+08:00

天气炎热的程度另人有点抓狂，望着蓝蓝的天空，就只有无奈。
所以都会期待夜晚，就只因为较凉快的温度令人思绪平静些。
就最近常想一个叫以后的名词，
一想到一星期将会过得很快就有点不舍

在那么热的天气，最伟大发明冷气，我爱它！
如此就决定到shopping mall享受冷气！
好吧，就如此的，比平时失控一些些的，
不顾价钱的，逛了几个小时，买了一堆的....

本来想在买双高跟鞋的，结果理智战胜了心情！看来我依然是理智的~

可喜可贺

i seeee

2010-02-01T00:46:00.001+08:00

Never know i miss home that much untill i stepped where i am
Perhaps it gradually bcome a comfortable zone that i never realise last time.
Hence,no matter how, we ought to step out of that zone.

As age growing up bit by bit
In the same, worrires are growing with it bit by bit
age= worry

ages = worries

A sharing of mail 一封邮件

2010-01-22T12:55:00.000+08:00

Since when laptop has bcome an item that i cant live without whenever i am not in home.
Recently my mail inbox reached an amount of 250+ @@
With the helpness of me by deleting all the 100+ FB photo comments and some weird mails,that repeated sent for plenty of time.
Well, it still remain that numbers.
Some how still clicked on some on interesting title to read.
Not sure anyone of you been read this but it is something i wish to share

離婚酒店~ 的帳單....

他和她結婚整整10年了，夫妻間已經沒有任何衝動與情趣，

他越來越覺得自己對她幾乎就是一種程式與義務，

他開始厭煩起了她，尤其是單位新調進了一個年輕活潑的女孩，

對他發起了瘋狂的進攻，他突然覺得她是自己的第二春，經過再三考慮，

他決定和她離婚。她似乎也麻木了，很平靜地答應了他，

兩個人一起走進了民政部門。 ¬

手續辦得很順利，出門後，兩個人已經是各自獨立的自由人了，

不知為什麼，他心裏突然有種空落落的感覺，他看了看她：

“天已經晚了，一起去吃點飯吧。”

她看了看他：“好吧，聽說新開了一家‘離婚酒店’，

專門執行離婚夫婦的最後一頓晚餐，要不咱們到那兒去看看。” ¬

他點了點頭，兩人一前一後默默地走進了離婚酒店。 ¬

“先生女士晚上好。”二人在包廂剛坐下，服務小姐便走了進來，

“請問兩位想吃點兒什麼？” ¬

他看了看她：“你點吧。” ¬

她搖了搖頭：“我不常出來，不太清楚這些，還是你點吧。” ¬

“對不起先生女士，我們離婚酒店有個規矩，這頓飯必

須要由女士點先生平時最愛吃的菜，由先生點女士平時最愛吃的菜，

這叫‘最後的記憶’。” ¬

“那好吧，”她理了理頭髮，“清蒸魚、溜蘑菇、拌木耳，

記住，都不要放蔥薑蒜，我先生……這位先生他不吃這些。” ¬

“先生呢？”服務小姐看了看他。

他愣住了。結婚10年，他真的不知道老婆喜歡吃什麼。他張著嘴，

尷尬地愣在了那兒。

“就這些吧，其實這是我們兩個人都愛吃的。”她連忙打起了圓場。 ¬

服務小姐笑了笑：“說實話，到我們離婚酒店來吃這最後一頓晚餐，

所有的先生和女士其實都吃不下去什麼，所以這‘最後的記憶’

咱們還是不要吃了吧。就喝我們酒店特意為所有離婚人士準備的

晚餐——冷飲吧，這也是所有來的人都不拒絕的選擇。”

她與她都點了點頭：“那就來冷飲吧。” ¬

很快，服務小姐送來了兩份冷飲，兩份飲料中一份淡藍一片，

全是冰渣；一份滿杯紅潤，冒著熱氣。 ¬

“這份晚餐名叫‘一半是火焰，一半是海水’，兩位慢用。”

服務小姐介紹完退了下去。 ¬

包房裏靜悄悄的，兩個人相對而坐，一時竟不知道該說什麼好。 ¬

“篤篤篤！”輕輕一陣敲門聲，服務小姐走了近來，托盤裏托著

一枝鮮豔的紅玫瑰：“先生，還記得您第一次給這位女士送花的情景嗎？

現在一切都結束了，夫妻不成就當朋友，朋友要好聚好散，

最後為女士送朵玫瑰吧。” ¬

她渾身一抖，眼前又浮現出了10年前他給她送花的情景，那時，

他們剛剛來到這座舉目無親的省城，什麼都沒有，一切從零開始。

白天，他們四處找工作，

努力拼搏；晚上，為了增加收入，她去晚市出小攤，他去給人家刷盤子。很晚很晚，

他們才一起回到租住在地下室裏那不足10平米的小屋。日子很苦，可他們卻很幸福。

到省城的第一個情人節

那天，他為自己買了第一朵紅玫瑰，她幸福得流下了眼淚。

10年了，一切都好起來了，可兩個人卻走向了分離。她想著想著，淚水盈滿了雙眼，

她擺了擺手說：“不用了。” ¬

他也想起了過去的10年，他這才記起，自己已經有五六年沒有給

她買過一枝玫瑰了。他擺了擺手：“不，要買。” ¬

服務小姐卻拿起了玫瑰，“刷刷”兩下撕成了兩半，分別扔進了

兩個人的飲料杯裏，玫瑰竟然溶解在了飲料裏。 ¬

“這是我們酒店特意用糯米製成的紅玫瑰，也是送給你們的第三道菜，

名叫‘映景的美麗’。先生女士慢用，有什麼需要直接叫我。”

服務小姐說完，轉身走了出去。 ¬

“XX，我……”他一把握住她的手，有些說不出話來。 ¬

她抽了抽手，沒有抽動，便不再動彈。兩個人靜靜地對視著，什麼也說不出來。

“啪！”突然，燈熄了，整個包房裏漆黑一片，外面警鈴大作，

一股煙味兒飄了進來。 ¬

“怎麼了？”兩個人急忙站了起來。 ¬

“店起火了，大家馬上從安全通道走！快！”外面，有人聲嘶力竭地喊了起來。

“老公！”她一下撲進了他的懷裏，“我怕！” ¬

“別怕！”他緊緊摟住她，“親愛的，有我呢。走，往外衝！” ¬

包廂外面燈光通明，秩序井然，什麼都沒有發生。 ¬

服務小姐走了過來：“對不起，先生女士，讓兩位受驚了。

酒店並沒有失火，煙味兒也是特意往包房裏放的一點點，

這是我們的第四道菜，名叫‘內心的選擇’。請回包廂。” ¬

他和她回到了包廂，燈光依舊。他一把拉她：“親愛的，

服務小姐說得對，剛才那才是你我內心真正的選擇。其實，

我們誰都離不開誰，明天咱們重新結婚吧？”

她咬了咬嘴唇：“你願意嗎？” ¬

“我願意，我現在什麼都明白了，明天一早咱就去辦結婚。

小姐，買單。”他說著喊了起來。 ¬

服務小姐走了近來，遞給兩人一人一張精緻的紅色清單：

“先生女士好，這是兩位的帳單，也是本酒店的最後一道贈品，

名叫‘永遠的帳單’，請兩位永遠保存吧。"

¬

他看著帳單，眼淚淌了下來。 ¬

“你怎麼了？”她連忙問道。 ¬

他把帳單遞給了她：“親愛的，我錯了，我對不起你。” ¬

她打開帳單一看，只見上面寫著：

一個溫暖的家；

兩隻操勞的手；

三更不熄等您歸家的燈；

四季注意身體的叮囑；

無微不至的關懷；

六旬婆母的微笑；

起早貪黑對孩子的照顧；

八方維護您的威信；

九下廚房為了您愛吃的一道菜；

十年為您逝去的青春……

這就是您的妻子。 ¬

“老公，您辛苦了，這些年也是我冷漠了你。”

她也把自己的那份帳單遞給了他。他打開帳單，只見上面寫著：

一個男人的責任；

兩肩挑起的重擔；

三更半夜的勞累；

四處奔波的匆忙；

無法傾訴的委屈；

留在臉上的滄桑；

七姑八姨的義務；

八上八下的波折；

九優一疵的凡人；

時時對家對子的真情……
這就是您的丈夫。 ¬
兩個人抱在一起，放聲痛哭。 ¬

結完帳，他和她對經理千恩萬謝，手牽手走回了家。

看者他們幸福的背影，經理微笑著點了點頭：

“真幸福，我們離婚酒店又挽救了一個家！

走走看看 ~

2009-12-31T13:23:00.000+08:00

看似漫长的一个月，其实呆在我房间没到两个星期的假期，令我眷恋。又开始习惯性的变懒，原本不勤劳的我，变得更加难以形容。一个星期的豪华旅行，到了家后，有股冲动不想回大学。理性的我并没有受daddy的建议（：多几天在回嘛？好不好？大家见到我第一句话是：你回来了~

第一次踏上拥有十三亿人民土地，很兴奋很期待。凌晨的班机，座了近六小时的飞机（忘了中国什么航班公司），起飞后就呼呼大睡，几小时后，脚快没知觉了，终于理解“花样男子”中的一句对白，“我脚太长不能座经济舱”(虽然我不高，但真的很辛苦,thai airline比较好）

那里和我想象的不一样，或许我对中国的印象还停留在不知什么年代。（惭愧）

很多事都得自己经历才了解
到北京转机，气温是 -8度毫无准备下机时，有够刺激的冷，身上只有一件外套。
转机到济南机场，气温稍微‘高’-2 度。很兴奋^^
泰安是一个路和宽大，车辆又不多的城市
第一天到了历代王帝必登的泰山，第一天保暖衣物不足，在山上冻到没太大的知觉

jhek 疯狂流鼻涕中

三间衣和一条裤忘了- ？？度

山东的食物大体上偏咸，导游说是因为北方人在冬天吃得比较咸，为了取暖。

行程就从简朴的泰安开始，那里的人日出而作，日落而息。是一个没有太多夜生活的地方。所以那里的人口太多。听导游说是因为晚上没事做，就干那回事。那里的的夜晚的街道没有没有太多人徘徊，或许是因为天冷吧！

冷冷早晨

千年老树太庙

驱车两小时，到了圣人孔子的故乡-曲阜。一个一切都很缅怀古旧的城市，建筑物偏低，多数是二楼，一部分的建筑物还遗留着清朝的特色。享用了一餐也还蛮咸的孔宴。到了孔府，孔庙和孔林。喜欢行走在很古旧的建筑物里的那种感觉。有可能是喜欢历史的洗涤，一瓶一物都是故事。历史成就太多今天的一切，燃起想了体验当中故事。虽然是不可能………

好想坐哦 >.<

孔府的凳子

后几天就是在一个和前两个城市大不同的青岛。高楼大厦，显示奥令比克赛场地影响后的繁华。较小的车道，看到了在前两个城市不会看到的塞车场景。同时是多个名牌子的制造地。Haier电器，清香的青岛啤酒等。全亚洲唯一的LV博物馆，卖PRADA,HERMAS等名牌商场。消费比一般城市高。由于曾被德国统治过，拥有很西式的建筑物和街道的城市。从小鱼山眺望好比瑞典的城市。时尚品味则是深深被邻国- 韩国的时尚的穿着影响。如果机会允许，想在不同的季节体会不一样的青岛。

小鱼山！风很大，冷残了

好喝的青岛啤酒！

kindly unspoken

2009-12-14T23:11:00.001+08:00

Great moment always gone fast .

Hence ppl will hope this/that moment kindly pause at that second even we knw it wont happen

That is why live in lies once in a while perhaps is a must some how?
agree ~

That is one of the way to make us feel how shud we felt.

Fate ? i met you , since ......i cant remember the day but same place

while i almost forget ur face . You appear ^^ and gone wit my eyes on ur back....
This is kind of amazing even u nv see me

Perhaps , no eyes contact for such long

but i think i may still remember & miss u....

random shoot ,didnt take much photo recently ^no idea

If the day has come

2009-11-21T02:30:00.000+08:00

The weather recentlly been really odd .
It tend to b cloudy and gloom most of the time for daylight .
Temperature keeps around 29 degree celcius.
Sudden change of this make me think of some significant which is the coming of the end of the world...
Well, we cant really do anything if it gonna happen
so i told my mom '' Well,what to scare , cause the whole world gonna die with me '' haha with Devil laugh
Suppose i gonna stop my study and enjoy the rest of it.
Rent loan , do what i wish to do !
1st : travel to Japan !
Mom : '' if it not gonna happen u gonna be really awful ''
Yeap, that is a fact either >.<

Hence , after watching the movie 2012
Well, some of the scientist did say that as a ridiculous that wont happen for that year .
Just hope they are really true the moment i watched all the scenes in the movie.
Indeed , never know that i am afraid wit the coming of it when i knw IF it may happen wit unexpected serious volcano, earthquake and mega tsunami .
Perhaps too many havent been done in my life....
eg : .....................i dont wish to spam my blog here

but One i am sure now, live for our everyday !

Inertia Indulge

2009-11-10T22:58:00.001+08:00

Night with drizzle again ...
Temperature now is estimated to be 25degree celcius.
Stepped out of my room with lil chill to have some walk .
Raining day currently raises my mood to being eventually lazy in doing whatever things around.
Study , watching drama, even a single lil movement....
Facing my laptop and clicked whatever i used to click .
Considered it as extra time for me to click on facebook, website and blaa
A click on fb did give some surprise exclamation to me .
Perhaps the others either , as to see a lil change within couple fella's profile which hav link related with some special relatioship.^^ Is that sort *crush may happen unconcious* ?
Well ~ jus sincerely wish wit bless to both of them wit this new relationship

Odd when the exictation that usually occur for me to do on all the online shopping jus nv seem works on me >.<
Glanced all over my notes , helpless feeling gushes even stregthen in me.
Hence decide not to see them tonight till my soul is back.
May it jus be the reason of Missing home ~

p.s : madly demand for ice-cream in raining day ~

Sing out

2009-11-08T17:12:00.001+08:00

Lift up my hand, counted on the fingers that that known to be 10 .

That is jus mentally preparation for me to be back instead of having my last paper on coming thur.
A test that suppose and expected to be nervous for me .
Yeap , it mentioned jus an expectation.
Hence ,we still followed the early plan to sing K .
When a bunch of MS ppl together, this will be the picture ----->

regret nv buy T.T

* all those pics are copyright frm william's cell

Raining season ~

2009-11-02T18:23:00.000+08:00

Opened my eyes, the tiny light pass throught the window and gave an answer .. I whispered
'' It gonna be sunny day today ''~
After had Vono mushroom soup for my breakfast...as usual took a bus ride to sit for my 4th test paper -12o'clock Academic communication .
Weird to be announced when all those China students did bring in electronic dictionary to the exam hall which i totally cant understand ? For sure , they were forbited to do so....
Over the shivering of 1and half hour (2 hours is given )..i decided to step out the 18 degree celcius hall which i estimated so....to treat my stomach that started to grumble after an hour i went in.....As usual my beloved coursemate were all outside chit-chat ^^
Having meal was a perfect time for people started an topic to share and talk(gossip).with the concerning abt the developement ofJason's crush(yea~we will cheer for u), coursemate issue(is SY joining us)..and so on jus excluded for studies~ a sudden thunder urge us to eat fast. However, drizzling come to us first.
Four people jus noob like to stand under David's pink cute umbrella and Joyce's black apple umbrella instead of waiting at the bus stop wit roof ...(ignore us ). The arrived of Zone 3 allow us to chat nonsence and captured some stupid pics for some time .

Happened to reach my hostel wit a big sunny day again ~ @@

'' Thunder ..u lie ..''
Moments after, the sky doubted me .. it starts to rain cat and dog..
A day with unexpected again ~

cant really capture the rain dropped

Sudden

2009-10-22T15:46:00.000+08:00

An odd rain , a great impulse, in burst of strong feeling,a peal in my ear,
Wants to throw away all the books,
no,No,you cant ><
forgive me,i am jus some how kind of nuts.
continue my Math

my latte replace wit coffee

Jus a wink

2009-10-21T02:44:00.000+08:00

Days in uni..what would i expected at first, fun?study or test?dating?frenz...?

Greed me want them all!! When all of them come and say hi to together ,it jus made so buzzzz annoying. However, i always strive learn to enjoy the buzzie as usual. Pleasure every moment i have with, enjoy the whole process is the only option .

Some how jus felt truly hectic , i will jus hav a sit and take a deep breath.

That is journey , all of us hav different path to pace. Once a step is move, pls dont ever apologise to it ,as i dont allow to or even corrected to mean it as...I cant do so.

Apparently,there were so much natural disasters happened all over the world > earthquake ,typhoon and tsunami. Over busy weeks had seized my time to concern abt all these. All these jus came continously , seem to give us some signal, to protect our earth ? would that be too late?

Those might jus all the mortal thought, which our mind suppose to think so instead of showing our action ~

According to the prophet, our living earth is going to be doom in the year of 2012, so happen that the actual chinese lunar calendar is only written up that year .
Combination of those circumstances , deny our ignorance of believe on it.

Wonder what am i going to do when the day has come??

Taiwan's Alishan that i went last year 2008

Could u imagine b4 and after the destroy of the typhoon flood??

the old train there

inside the train ~ smell of charcoal

the winter there with ages huge plants and trees

Gonna miss that !

The last station 最后一站

2009-09-14T12:20:00.000+08:00

刚忙完最近的考试，并没有太大的感触。也许是在这过程并没有太大压力，但有了最起码的松懈。
就这样，空出我的星期日，去了老人院慈善探访。由于负责接待处，才发我是当中最小^^。
在去的路途中并没有太大的期盼，毕竟这不是第一次到老人院。到的时候，就只是看到了一些义工在一旁等待着我们。就跟着之前所分好的工作，全部人的名字依依的被念出，跟着义工们进去。
在上着楼梯时，鼻子就闻到有一阵阵异味，当一踏进去时，更不用说~ 口罩，手套通通上。

选择关怀组的我并没有特别挑战的任务，跟他们剪剪指甲，抹一抹床架。比起要和老人家冲凉的工作，简直是没得比。那起水桶，一个一个床架的去檫，说真的，真的不知道要和他们说什么，就只能对他们露出微微的笑容，遇到不和蔼的还会赶你走。

清理完后便到唯一的两间厕所倒掉污水，走过去，看到的是一些恐怖又心酸的他们，躺在一个与老鼠一同生活的一个地方。身体躺在那里，开着眼睛，似乎很无奈的在过每一天，没勇气的我，回避了他们。

倒掉污水后便走了出去。心理有着莫名感叹。就这样，走到一位老人家的声旁，陪他聊聊天，谈谈往事，种种的过去。婆婆是客家人，土生土长，非常纯朴，有diabetes ,但她却很少吃甜食，这就是所谓的宿命。以问之下，才知道这里只有假日才有义工服务，平时都是自己照顾自己，想象那些行动不变的他们又能如何？听到来自马六甲的我就激动地说马六甲人都很真诚，潮州的女生都很漂亮。听到我都不好意思~

就是这位婆婆~

老人们吃完午餐后，就是我们大家手语+唱歌团康表演的时刻了，

‘’ 分分钟需要你” +甜甜蜜+掌声响起

我们开心的表演却是有着两种表情和动作的存在，一些是开心得亨着歌，一些却是不停地用手擦试脸，确定的是，他们应该都感受到我们为的爱和真诚 ~

环境非常得不好！比一般的糟糕........

棺材店楼上居住着一群无依无靠的老人们，

p.s : 或许他们都知道，这里就是他们最后一站 ~

smile --> Grin

2009-09-06T02:52:00.001+08:00

Busy life used to pass fast, unconciously i am living in this place(ukm) for nearly 3 months,for a person like me who can gt used easily in any enviroment isnt make huge difference.Perhaps,some how i will still tend to recall the past for no reason.Brain disorder?hmm,i consider this as a phenomenan occured when i am doing nothing,brain empty.
Seem that i cant let myself being to freely around....sigh,kind of self troubling !!

ps: will visit my old house once in a blue moon http://chris0aki.spaces.live.com/default.aspx **